Alone New Yorker bedroom art-pop · nyc / nowhere
official release / transmission

Back to the hurt

An official Alone New Yorker release, preserved in the signal archive with credits, lyrics and listening links.

Single
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Artwork for Back to the hurt
official credits

Credits

Composition
Benjamin Decraene
Production
Alone New Yorker
Engineering
Alone New Yorker
words / original language

Lyrics

English

I said I was fine but I lied again

I still hear your voice in the quiet end

There is nothing left but the shape of you

In the place where I used to sleep

I tried to be cold but I feel too much

I hate that I still want your hands to touch

Every little thing that I never said

Comes back and lies next to me

I do not know where the love goes

When somebody lets it die

I only know that it follows

Like a shadow I keep inside

And I fall back to the hurt

Back to the night you left me first

Back to the words I never heard

Back to the way it burns

I keep losing you the same

I keep whispering your name

I keep waking up alone

And going back to the hurt again

I washed all my sheets but they smell like loss

I turned off the songs that we almost loved

There is nothing cruel like an empty room

That remembers everything

I wonder if you ever feel this low

Or if I am the only one who knows

How a heart can break without making sound

And still not stop beating

I do not know where the pain goes

When nobody sees you cry

I only know that it stays close

Like a prayer I cannot write

And I fall back to the hurt

Back to the night you left me first

Back to the words I never heard

Back to the way it burns

I keep losing you the same

I keep whispering your name

I keep waking up alone

And going back to the hurt again

Maybe I loved you wrong

Maybe I held too tight

Maybe you were already gone

Sleeping beside me every night

Maybe I knew the truth

Maybe I closed my eyes

Maybe the saddest thing I do

Is keep you alive

And I fall back to the hurt

Back to the night you left me first

Back to the words I never heard

Back to the way it burns

I keep losing you the same

I keep whispering your name

I keep waking up alone

And going back to the hurt again

I keep losing you the same

I keep whispering your name

I keep waking up alone

And going back to the hurt again